My pretty ballerina and tap dancer.

So frustrated.

I am so frustrated I anxious I can't sleep.  Since the day Taylor turned 3 she has been enrolled in a small Montessori preschool.  I knew all the parents and children.  I loved the 3 teachers and would converse with them.  Well, this year the preschool teacher sold her company to a woman who is not Montessori certified.  I have an issue with that because now no one is certified.  I also have a problem that the front sign out front reads, "ages 3-6" and there are now 5, 18 month olds in her class. They are not separated either. Taylor plugs her ears because of the noise.  I am also upset because now there are toys that are not Montessori toys around. I am upset because I pay $425 for 3 days per week. (8:30 am -3:30 pm)  I enrolled my daughter under the premise that the preschool would stay the same.  I don't want the validity of the program to be compromised. 

Said frustrations, I asked the preschool teacher for two weeks of enrollment back because I do not feel like I am getting what I signed up for.  She says , "No. I am sorry that you have to tell yourself those things to make yourself feel better."  WTF?!  I am stating facts and am not the only one with these concerns. 

Taylor is now enrolled in a different preschool , but I cannot start her because I will not be getting any money back.  So, Taylor will have to wait until next month. 

AHHHHH!

I am not a bitch on purpose to this teacher. I am sure she is going to be nice and all.  But, the issues I do not like will not go away with time. They will always remain.  I am confrontational when it comes to my daughter and what I feel is best.  If that makes me a bitch....I guess I am.

To that time again.

Well, my package of fertility shots and meds made it to my door today.  I guess that means that I am beginning my two final rounds of trying, through a fertility doctor.  I am nervous and scared. I can't help but think if this first month doesn't work that I only have one more cycle.  .....then if that doesn't work......   Well, it looks like I will be starting everything on or around the 12th of September.  I of course, will keep everyone posted on my mood swings, hot flashes, shots, and ultrasounds.  (Did I mention I get 2 a month.....not on the stomach.)

I keep trying to remind myself to stay positive and try to breathe.

Ahhhhhh!

Oh my gosh!!! This was my first week back to work and Taylor is home with me because preschool is cleaning next week. This makes for a guilty feeling mommy.  I have had 3 play dates in the last 3 days, in an attempt to supplement the attention I am not paying to her.  I think it has worked.  But, I am so over having extra children in my house. AHHHHH!

It also seems like all of the paperwork and computer programs that I use, for work,  aren't working effectively. The paperwork I need is not available, the computer programs are brand new so I am learning them and inputting old information.  AHHHHH!

Then, Eric has been out of town since Tuesday. He will not return until Sunday evening. He is doing an off road race.  It is called the Best in the Desert.  He races from Las Vegas to Reno. Pretty scary.  The day before he left there was a story on the Today Show that talked about a vehicle, the same he is racing, flying off the track and killing several people.  Another AAHHHHHH moment.  To make matters worse, I was supposed to be able to track him on the website and I can't. I don't even know how he is .....

My white water rafting trip in photos.

The way up. .. wow hair!

My Eric.

The HOT 23 year old river guide.. . made me feel like a PUMA.  (not quite a cougar)

The raft.

This is how we ate lunch. .. pretty rough life ?!

Two of the 3 guys I was with.  

A great group of people we met in Riggins. They even let me use the shower. It was great after camping in a dirt pile.

Love him!

How to spend the 4th of July weekend!

Get together with cousins.

Play in the water with daddy.

Eat some turkey while being lazy!

Attempt to get in the cold water.

Throw a fit!

Get a piggy back ride with daddy.

All cousins, uncles and papa's together.

Get the family together to watch fireworks.

Go home and swim in the pool with daddy while practicing how to use goggles.

What I've been up to.

So, my blogging has taken a back seat because I am BUSY!  I am teaching summer school, while Taylor is at home with me. I have also started taking my masters courses. That alone is enough to make me want to scream!  I forgot how much I did not enjoy writing papers.  I sat at the library from 10-1 yesterday, but I did get the paper written.  What a relief!

Well, here is what my summer has consisted of. . .minus all of that other crap!

Heading to the zoo. . where we locked the kids in jail. LOL!

Driving the safari. .. .still at the zoo.

taking naps with daddy

Gotta love a good secret!