My better half....

I rarely mention Eric or how wonderful he is.  I am not even sure if I have ever posted a picture of him.  I wanted to share this picture because, today, I am making my post about Eric....I feel so grateful to have him in my life. He makes me smile when I am feeling down and knows how to make me feel like everything will be okay.  He spoils the hell out of me and is such a wonderful father to our daughter.  I LOVE you Eric Charles Holloway.

Fabulous Christmas

Well, Christmas is over and it is time to try and get back into a routine! Maybe easier said than done.  I wanted to post a few pictures of our Christmas.

 Three generations: Great Gram Lamm, Gram'e, and Taylor Jo.

Santa left us all a stocking!

 Look at all of those presents!

 Every Christmas Eve we lay in bed and listen to Daddy read, "Twas the Night Before Christmas."

 Taylor got a wheelchair for her American Girl doll....can you tell her mommy is a special education teacher?

 Christmas day we had a blind-folded food contest......Eric and I's food won!

 Twister with Uncle Keith....notice where his face is.

Daddy bought us all dart guns.....it has been very fun!

Holistic Chiropractor

Okay, I just wanted to give an update on my experience, thus far, with the holistic chiropractor.  I feel AMAZE Balls! (Like Guilianna Rancic says)  I have been sleeping better and not waking up or struggling to fall asleep.  I have had regular BM's (which are not usual), and my period started 3 days early and was heavier than it has been in years. All of these things tell me that my body is reacting appropriately to the treatment. The period thing is the most amazing thing of all. I have been tracking my periods for years and cannot tell you the last time I started my period early without being on fertility drugs. In addition, I am MUCH heavier than I have been in a long time. This tells me that my lining was thicker than the previous months.   (YEAHHHH! This is what we wanted to happen without fertility drugs.)

   I am truly in shock! You don't really realize how poorly you were feeling until you actually feel good.  I so  badly wanted to believe that Holistic Chiropractic work could help me feel better or even "fix" me. I was, initially, a skeptic. Now, that I see and feel all of these amazing changes I am a believer in holistic approaches to fertility. I am NOT pregnant yet.... but, who knows!?

Taylor's dance recital

Here is a video clip from Taylor's dance recital. She was so proud of herself.

Just a little bit of contemplating.

So, I have been eating healthy these past two weeks and working out more. I am also trying to cut back on wine and soda.  In addition I am meeting with a naturopathic chiropractor who is known is Boise as the Fertility Goddess. ( she isn't a crack your back dr...more gental pressure) I met with her for the initial consult and she told me that my lower back is very tight. Typically, that would mean nothing to me, but then she told me that the area should be palpable. This particular area is linked to a womans reproductive organs and fertility. I am going to meet with her again next Monday. She really wants me to see her 3 times the first week and twice each additional week. I just don't know if I have the time or money to do that frequently. I will see what I can come up with for time and finances.  She said that she will start off with fixing my body and then start to work with the digestion and diet. 

http://www.journalofsubluxationresearch.com/abstracts/bio_behrendt_madeline.htm

Start of something new.

Well, today marks the official start at my attempts to be healthy.  I am still waiting for the Infertility Cure, book that I ordered to come. I am very anxious to start reading it.  In the meantime, I went to Costco and bought all Natural or organic food and drinks to nosh on. (carrot juice, Kefir, Soy milk, almonds,and Organic meat) I am hoping that by minimizing the animal products that I eat, which contain hormones, it will help with my infertility....it can't hurt.  In addition, I am upping the amount and frequency of workouts.  (There is a DVD set that I would like to get- it is Yoga specifically designed for fertility) I have also scheduled acupuncture sessions. There is a ton of reading out there that discusses the benefits of such practices when trying to increase fertility.

So, wish me luck that I can survive this.  I have a terrible snacking addiction.  

HCG of 2....

Well, I had my Beta done today at 8:30am.  I hadn't heard back by 10:30 so I called the office for the results. The nurse said, "Sorry, but the results are negative, your beta is 2."  She then proceeded to explain ...which I have heard a million times....that anything below 5 is considered negative. I asked the nurse why my beta was 2 and not 0?  She told me that it was likely because the embryo tried to implant but was unsuccessful.  BUMMER!  How can 5 follicles and such a good semen sample NOT produce a baby? I guess this explains why about 8dpiui by entire breasts were tender and now just the nipple area is.  This would also explain why I got a faint line on a pregnancy test at 12dpiui and a negative on 13dpiui. 


I spoke with Eric and he made me feel so much better.  We tossed around various ideas of next steps.  We have decided that for the next 3 months we will eat healthy,(organic), get in good shape, and that I will consult with a naturopathic doctor who specializes in fertility. (more importantly woman with thin uterine lining and multiple miscarriages, such as myself)  At the end of that 3 month time we will reconvene and determine if we are up for going back to the fertility doctor or not.  Our issue is that we have had much more success getting pregnant on our own. We have had ZERO lucky conceiving with the help of a fertility doctor. With that being said maybe my body doesn't like all of the chemicals that I am putting in it.  I have had one successful and natural pregnancy.  There has to be a reason why things are not working. Maybe I am not processing something or lacking something.  It can't hurt to try something else.

Has anyone read, The Infertility Cure?