So, on Tuesday at 8:00am I go in for my final beta. This test will determine if I ended up pregnant. Things were looking promising. . .almost too promising. I am not sure if I wrote this at all, but I had 3 potential eggs and my lining was thicker than ever! If the results end up not in the direction I am hoping for . .. I am DONE! No more trying. I can't afford emotionally or financially to continue with this. I am tired of counting the days of where I am and how much longer I have. I am finally in a place where I am okay if the only child I ever have isTaylor. I appreciate the family that we have created and am thankful. I have started going back to church. .. not because of the infertility thing, but because Taylor has started to ask questions about God. I would hate to tell her the wrong thing and have her go around repeating that. LOL! (This is after a 2 year long break. .. since the divorce I have not been as diligent about going. . .nor have I had the desire) Okay. .. maybe part of me knows I need to get my head on straight and get my priorities in order! :)
I will keep you posted. I am not going to keep any result a secret. I would rather use this blog as an outlet that keep in bottled inside.
Monday, May 10, 2010
This year I was absolutely spoiled. My mother's day started on Saturday. I went to the car dealership to "just look" for a new car for the family. One that Eric could actually fit in. (He is soooo tall.) So, I had previously looked online and found the car/truck that I wanted. I met with the gentleman at the dealership around 10am. I test drove the car and LOVED it. We sat and talk .. .one thing lead to another and he made me a deal I couldn't or shouldn't pass up. One problem. . .the down payment. I called and text Eric. He told me to "GO FOR IT!" and he would make the downpayment. . .Happy Mother's Day. CAN YOU BELIEVE IT!? I am so thrilled and the owner of a 2008 Honda Ridgeline. It is beautiful!