So, on Tuesday at 8:00am I go in for my final beta. This test will determine if I ended up pregnant. Things were looking promising. . .almost too promising. I am not sure if I wrote this at all, but I had 3 potential eggs and my lining was thicker than ever! If the results end up not in the direction I am hoping for . .. I am DONE! No more trying. I can't afford emotionally or financially to continue with this. I am tired of counting the days of where I am and how much longer I have. I am finally in a place where I am okay if the only child I ever have isTaylor. I appreciate the family that we have created and am thankful. I have started going back to church. .. not because of the infertility thing, but because Taylor has started to ask questions about God. I would hate to tell her the wrong thing and have her go around repeating that. LOL! (This is after a 2 year long break. .. since the divorce I have not been as diligent about going. . .nor have I had the desire) Okay. .. maybe part of me knows I need to get my head on straight and get my priorities in order! :)
I will keep you posted. I am not going to keep any result a secret. I would rather use this blog as an outlet that keep in bottled inside.