Yesterday was terrible! Not only was I dealing with the emotional mess of not being pregnant, I had to decide whether we would be trying another round of IUI. I was unprepared with having to deal with that...
IUI is comparison to other fertility methods is cheap. However, when you are between paychecks and don't own a credit card it makes coming up with money for fertility a bit difficult. I was struggling yesterday with trying to figure out how to pay for a second round of IUI with only $600. I had enough to cover the first ultrasound and all of the medication...but, not enough for the second ultrasound and the actual procedure. Finally, I turned to my family. They offered to loan me the remaining balance until my paycheck in a couple of weeks. What a pill to swallow having to borrow money for a procedure that is, essentially, elective. Borrowing the money will make things tight for the next month, but I feel like I made a decision that is reflective of what Eric and I are wanting....and that is another child.
I just can't help but feel like my body is letting me down. How on earth can you have a successful pregnancy, delivery, and healthy child? Then, try again and have miscarriage after miscarriage.....
Some say I should just stop trying and it will happen. I want to PUNCH those people! I can get pregnant. I have had 7 miscarriages. That is not the problem. The problem is that my uterine lining will not support a pregnancy.....that is not something that not "trying" will fix.
Onward and Upward....we try once more. If not I think I will try reading a book called, The Infertility Cure. I have heard wonderful things about it. I guess it can't hurt.
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Email me...I had some of the same issues as you and I thought I might offer a few things that might help! LeighmCarter@hotmail.com. We talked through email about two years ago about online teaching! Leigh
ReplyDeleteI found your blog thru another blog. Although my story is a little different, I have felt the same way. I've experienced recurrent pregnancy loss and would cringe when people would say things like it will happen when you stop trying. I just wanted to yell that getting pregnant isn't the problem. Anyway I will be praying for you!
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